Birthdays

So birthdays and Mother's Day are two of the best days of the year.  Your children seem to try extra hard to not fight and to do thier chores and to be nice to you.  It is wonderful, I know they love me everyother day of the year too but when they put forth that extra effort it makes it all the more special.
On the other hand, when you have children who act the way they do on your birthday every day, you know they have the true love, respect and maturity that makes your heart soar. There is no doubt that they have grown into more than you could have ever expected.
I am so greatful for the children I have they are truely wonderful.....

The Pounds

So I wrote down all my wieghts last week so I could record them when I had time, well now I can't remember where I wrote them.  So I will go from memory.  Monday 152.8, Tuesday 152.4, Wednesday 151.6, Thursday 151.0, Then I didn't weight in on the weekend and Today is was 153.2,  I guess I need to start weighing in on the weekends too.  I did discover though that I can't go completely without carbs, it actually made me crave them worse than I ever had.  So just cutting back helps me more.  Also if I know I'm going to be weighing myself in the morning I eat less.  I still have not been motivated into excercising yet.  I get all ready to go run or walk or do yoga but I just find so many other things that need done instead.  I know I need to be healthier and that should be a top priority for me but I just need to change my mind set for it first.  Just doing it to lose weight or run a half marathon with my sister, daughter and niece just isn't the motivation I can use to propell myself.

Day 2

So second day of no husband, and I'm ready for him to come back home.....
My weight this morning was 153.0 lbs.  So far I've only lost 8 ounces.  Not exactly a pound a day but I will take what I can get.  I'm sure one of these days I will get on the scale and I will have lost 3 or 4 pounds, so it will all balance out.

25 Pounds in 25 Days!!!!

So I'm conducting an experiment.  I seen an advertisement for a drug that would help you lose 25 pounds in only 25 days.  Which seems too good to be true.  It is very expensive and who knows what it would do to your body.  It is made up of caffeine and other metabolism and energy boosters.(hang on to your heart).
Well I wonder  what would happen if I stopped eating so many carbs and cut out all junk food and exercised twice a day?  Could I have the same results without the risk of my heart exploding?
I started yesterday and it went well, I realized I will have to wean off the candy and junk food slowly because it is such a habit for me.
Starting weight was 153.8 lbs. 
Today's weight is 153.2 lbs.
I am actually really excited about doing this....of coarse I  have said that before but who knows this could be different.

Self Discoveries

This weekend I have had a few self discoveries....first I found that when someone hurts me I tend to pull away from them.  I think it is a defense so that I won't get hurt again. I don't think most people mean to hurt us, they are either upset or just not thinking about what they are saying or something. So I need to try to not let things hurt me and when it does just let it go and still reach out and be there for the one who has done the hurt.
My next discovery is that when I say or do the things that I've been prompted to do I save time and lives, help someone else or just feel more peace which makes my day go a whole lot better.
My third discovery was not to good.... I discovered that I have put on five pounds.... Time to start running again. Actually now that I have time I should workout twice a day.
Discovery number four the end of the school year is a very busy time. I should not schedule anything else at this time.  We have something major every night this week including tonight which should be FHE.  I think some people schedule meetings on Monday because they know you don't have any other church meetings.
Enough of the discoveries, life is good and family is great.  Love where your at or make it the very best you can.

Words to live by

Remember you are more beautiful than you see,
More talented than you think,
and smarter than you know.

Gratitude

So after a wonderful Stake Conference Broadcast and weeks of contemplation I changed the title of my blog..... I want to live the Lord's way and do things the way He outlined them to be.  I find joy in serving my family and taking care of our home.  My testimony has increased as I take the time to study my scriptures and ponder their meaning in my life.  I am eternally grateful to my Heavenly Father and all that he has blessed me with.

mom's worry

Stihl called from Chicago, where he is competing at BPA Nationals to tell me he has had a bloody nose for almost 20 minutes and wants to know what to do about it......For a split second "mommy mode" kicks and I start thinking about flying out there to make sure it's ok, then I realize how dumb that would be and wonder if instead there is a Relief Soceity Pres. that I could contact out there to go take care of him. Still a pretty lame thought, then I gather my common sense and realize all he really needs is to hear that I love him. I told him to lay down for a while and call me back in twenty minutes.  He called back and we talked for almost ten minutes on the phone, (the longest conversation I think we have ever had that didn't include a sport or him convincing me to buy him something.)

My daughter who is away at college told me she had a bad dream one night and all I could like to tell her was that if it got too bad she could come sleep on my bedroom floor.  When she calls and says she needs a hug I want to drive there and give her a hug and make everything bad in her life go away.

I guess it doesn't matter how old they are or how far away...I will always be their mom, it never ends.  For that I am eternally grateful.

Love, Mom

random

How cute is this?  It is a lego Woody from Toy story.  Ha I just wanted a picture to put on to make my post look more interesting but since our computer problem we have not loaded more pictures back on so this is all I have to work with.
So my weigh in this week is 152.2 the same as last week.  But I have started running again so it should change next week, hopefully.
I love not having to go to work every morning but I haven't done any more than put my hair in a pony tail all week, so I need to make that more of a priority.

bad day

Today was a particularly bad day...I got my visa bill, and what I thought was only 300 was really 800 and because I didn't request a paper bill the automatically send an email one...so I didn't know I had received a bill for April therefore I didn't pay it. So my husband got a phone call from them today telling them that I need to pay the amount owed by Tuesday.  He didn't even know I had a balance on this card let alone such a large one. 
I really messed up again and I don't even understand how it happened.  It was just one little thing at a time I guess.
There is no excuse for it but now I get the "I'm so disappointed" treatment and for at least the next six months anytime we can't go do something fun it's going to be because mom can't take care of the money..... I just want to bury my head in the sand and forget about all my troubles.

Red Heads

A little message out there to all those who think it's funny to refer to red-heads as gingers and say they don't have a soul.  I would just like to say, think before you speak.....words are hurtful and name calling no matter how funny everyone thinks it is, is wrong.  Even when the person you are calling the names to laughs with you, inside they are hurting and they will probably go home and cry......

Dieting

I haven't got on the scale for about two months...I knew I wasn't exercising and I had been eating alot of junk so I knew it would be bad.  I got on this morning and I am not happy with myself.... So this will be my record of weekly weigh-in, food intake and exercises...I only have one follower so it's not like I have to worry about what others think of me.  I know my follower will love me no matter how awful I am at dieting....:)
Weigh-in: 154.6 lbs
Walked 1 mile tonight
Breakfast;  half grapefruit, ten saltine crackers.
Lunch; chicken fettichini,
Snack; three handfuls of carmel popcorn.
Dinner; spaghetti and steamed califlower.
Pretty good if I say so myself,  although I felt like I was starving all day...

Teachers

Meeting with one of my kids teachers this morning....why is we feel the need to fight for them?  I wish teachers could see the potential I see in them.  Can't I send them to school and expect them to be treated like they already are the best they can be.....don't judge them, or make them feel less than they are. Help to build and shape them, just accept them and sit back and watch all that they become.

What to wear

When my kids were little and I stayed home with them all day, I didn't see much sense in getting all dressed up when I went out.  I was presentable my hair was done and my clothes clean.  But when I would go to the school to watch them in a play or put on a program I felt self conscious about my looks.
Once I started working I loved getting dressed up in my dress pants and nice button up shirt, I liked hearing my heels click as I walked out the door.  I felt more confident, I thought people could see who I really was meant to be.
As I have gained more wisdom.  I see who I am meant to be.  A mom, which I know see as the greatest calling in the world..... I would love to trade all those days in a suit for more days in jeans and a t-shirt spent watching over my kids.
I realize now it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me,  I only have to answer to myself....I want to look in the mirror and see my hair in a ponytail, my jeans muddy from working in my garden, flour on my shirt from the bread I baked and took to my sisters I visit teach and a glow in my eyes because I finally know my mission on this earth.

Malad Lyrical

Malad Comp. cont.

Malad comp

Dance Comp

Spent the majority of the day Saturday sitting at a dance competition, I love seeing all the fun costumes and dances. Here is a few videos of my daughter's team...I have not heard yet if they won anything.

Why?

My decision to come home has not been an easy one and to be quite honest I'm sceptical about whether or not it will really work out.  Which shows my lack of faith....I couldn't have made this leap without the guidance and help from my Heavenly Father.  Someone once told me... "sometimes the spirit hits you with snowballs to get you to see the way you should go and sometimes it is more like an avalanche that puts you on the path you should be on".  So mine was just like an avalanche...the snowballs had been hitting me for over a year, and I ignored them.  Then last weekend while listening to General Conference the wall of snow from my avalanche hit me full force.  So I took a leap of faith and gave my notice at work.  Now I have to figure out how we are going to make this happen.........